Let me tell you a little fable that also happens to be a true story...
The same week I started at Columbia, an old friend from college left New York to attend a different film school in another city.
A month later, he came right back.
He had taken one look around and realized that film school was a terrible
I’m ashamed to admit it now, but I pitied him.
On the one hand, here was I: Whenever anyone asked me what I was doing with my life, I got to say “I’m getting a masters from Columbia University.”
Everybody was very
impressed. Nobody responded, “Gee what a waste”.
Nobody said, “Holy hell, man, how are you ever going to pay that off??”
Getting a Columbia degree is a “very worthwhile thing to do.”
My friend, meanwhile, had to admit to people at parties that he was a film school dropout, working as a temp and performing with improv troupes around town.
I went to a lot of his shows and let me tell you something about improv: it’s painful.
The troupe would do a skit and you would hear crickets.
Not one real laugh.
I felt terrible:
Here I was, being told by famous filmmakers at an Ivy League school that my work was great.
And here this guy was, begging for laughs in a basement in Brooklyn.
It wasn’t until I graduated and that I finally asked, “What do I have to show for all those years and all that money?”
The truth was that I had experienced the exact same realization
as my friend had, two weeks into my own film school experience.
That was how long it took me to realize that Columbia had a terrible
I should have left, right there and then, but I didn’t, because I couldn’t face the shame
I wanted to sound impressive at parties.
I wanted lots of praise from professors.
I wanted these things so badly that I was willing to spend $150k to get them.
(Really far more than that.
It will probably balloon to $300k by the time I finally get it paid off.)
After graduation, the truth came crashing down: the professors that I thought were my good friends stopped returning my calls, now that I was no longer paying them to like me.
Then I found out that no one in the business was impressed by a Columbia degree.
Worst of all, my new manager started sending out my Columbia-award-winning scripts and guess what I heard?
Suddenly, I noticed something about my friend that I had never realized before: All that time, he could hear the crickets too. Unlike me
, he knew that his work wasn’t connecting to paying audiences.
And it hurt.
And so he had slowly gotten better
Let’s cut to the chase: A few months ago, he got a call at his temp job, and then he promptly quit.
He’s now a staff writer at “The Daily Show”.
Every writer on staff gets an Emmy every year.
Now he has no problem telling people at parties what he does.
As for me, I started this blog, re-educated myself, wrote a bunch of new scripts and now I’ve making some money, though I’m still a long way away from paying off those loans.
But most graduates of Columbia tragically never even secure representation
, much less make a sale.
Now I know what I was really
buying with that $150,000: I was paying the crickets to stay away.
I was insulating myself from any real criticism.
I was paying people to like
In short: I was paying to be coddled.
And all that money and all that coddling made me a worse
Film school teaches you how to please your professors, please your fellow students, and, most of all, please yourself. It doesn’t teach you how to please a paying audience
In fact, at my school, if you even said that you wanted
to please a paying audience, the professors would tell you that you were making a terrible mistake.The only reliable way to get better is to put your work before paying audiences and learn to please them through trial and error.
Everyday you do that, you will
Otherwise, it will be almost impossible.
If you go to film school, that’s four years of not getting better, for which you get a lifetime of debt.
The moral of this little fable? DO NOT GO TO FILM SCHOOL.
Find yourself a basement theater, or a small newspaper, or an open mic night.
Listen to the crickets. Learn to please unfriendly audiences.
Slowly, painfully, get better